From Afghanistan to America, crossroads of life

I am mother of an amazing girl and I love her to pieces. I and my  husband want her to be happy, confident and emotionally strong now and when she grows up. Choosing the right or compatible method for this goal is really a challenge, probably for any parent. I constantly try to educate myself and come up with effective ways of disciplining and teaching her. Anytime I witness a character flaw or serious misjudgement in a teenager, I lose my night sleep. All I think is what can I do now to avoid such trouble later. In Afghanista, parent's didn't and don't have a whole lot to worry about, technology is limited and so is freedom and choices. Women are suppressed in villages, and those living in cities don't have much freedom. Life is much simpler there and it is much easier for parents to raise children. Not that I like the oppressive and narcissist parenting of afghanistan, but I wish for that kind of power at challenging times, LOL. Here, children have much more freedo...

I just finished reading over some old posts of mine. I don't want to jump the guns but I have started the journey to personal improvement and better attitude. I stay out of gossip at work and home, I don't get all riled up when my mother comes to me with a complaint, I don't get defensive when my husband says sth to me and I value myself more. I find myself questioning the benefits of sth to me or when deciding on sth, I do what I feel like rather than over thinking and overreacting. I have just started but I want to log every little improvement and I want to count them toward a bigger and more consistent change. I am watching my self talk/self criticism, or my inner gremlin. For the last week, zumba fitness has been on my mind. If  I have to choose between learning to play guitar or taking up zumba fitness classes, I will go for zumba. Peace out....

2011 New years eve was OK. I am glad my hubby is with me and I hope everything work out well in the long run and in the short run. The new year change didn't hit me all at once, instead it has been a gradual realization. It is only the third day and I am starting to feel a bit different than before. Different in regard to my emotions, my analysis of events and my tolerance or patience. I feel like making 2011 about me, myself. I want to focus my energy on myself, exploring my potentials, improving my attitude and character and realizing my importance in my own life/fate. I want to be a great mother, wife and daughter. But first and foremost, I want to be a great human being, emotionally neutral, mentally stable, calm and in charge of my life. That is what I have always wanted but I never know how to go about it. Thanks to my biggest critic, I am realizing where I am wrong. Lets see how I rise to the challenge :))