From Afghanistan to America, crossroads of life

I have decided to try my green thumb this summer. This weekend, I will get couple pots, dirt and flowers and will get down and dirty. In Afghanistan, we had a huge yard, and given the fact that my father was an agriculture major, we had many vegetables and flowers planted. It was a family activity, every late afternoon to water the plants and take care of them, removing weeds and other grass.  It definitely helped us during hard economical times to have fresh vegetables at hand. Life was simple. As a new project/hobby, I will take on planting one pot of flowers and one pot of mint. It is a delicate and expensive herb. It will come handy. As for flowers, I will do a quick research to figure out what kind of flower will last long. Daisies and roses are on my list. Got couple more things on my to do list for the coming week; printing and hanging some favorite family photos and getting my desktop computer up and running. Excited !!!!

I turned in my final resignation letter to my hospital registration job today. By the end of next week, I will be done with full time job for a while. So the end of a job that was beginning to frustrate me. Lately, I wasn't happy to come to work and usually got tired and sleepy at work. Glad I am out of this dump. But I need to adjust my attitude, Again, to enjoy what I have coming. Long hours of class and studying, homework and much more. So if I continue this poopy attitude, I will suffer all the time no matter what. I started today by creating a small list of things to de-stress. Instead of letting small stressful things to pile up on my mind and blow out later, I need to constantly do some de-stressing activity on a daily basis. I read somewhere about 'having your own peace ritual'. Good idea, ha! My list looks something like this: have alone time, go to the gym or jogging or sth, thinking of nothing but your surroundings and nature. take a bath, put on make up, pu

We are emotional beings, some of us more emotional than others. However, wearing your heart at your sleeve leaves you vulnerable to heartaches and disappointments. I have been professionally diagnosed to be very emotional. Thus, I have hard time remaining emotionally neutral at times. It is something I learned growing up and now I have to grow out of it. It is hard work. But I am counting the advantages of remaining calm and thinking with your head rather than riding the roller coaster of emotions and deciding by your heart. I am not saying to get rid of your empathy and totally take the emotions out of the equation. I am saying keep emotions in control, they should be a small part with minimum effect on your decision making. So far that I have practiced using my  head and keeping my emotions as bay, I have minimized negative impact of the situation on myself and the embarrassing behavior of myself under stress . Good deal :)) Level of daily stress is very much higher here than that

I can't help but complain, lol. I am actually excited for getting in the program and starting my new routine bakhair. It will be a new learning experience and I am looking forward to it. The one big hole is living like a single parent. My partner isn't here and I feel his absence in my life, some days more than other days. But, I am honestly grateful; for getting in the program, for having my family to support me, for a good paying job for him and my little princess who makes me smile all the time. I am grateful to God for all his blessings. Of course, I feel as though I am being punished by the consequences of my sins and poor choices and I wonder if I will be punished for them after life too. It will be a double jeopordy case, being tried twice for the same crime :). God is great! I am learning more and more to be in control and in charge of my emotions. I shouldn't fall in the rut hole again. I am a bit tired of hectic life here though. Life is much simpler and easier