Done with exams!! But
Just a little over 24 hours since I got done with my final exams but I am not as relieved as I was expecting. Setting up my apartment, completing a long trail of paperwork, and much more is on my plate making it harder and harder for me to just kick back and relax. I should learn to stay calm and relaxed on a daily basis regardless of daily tensions and worries. I don't want to yell at my baby while she makes innocent baby mistakes because I am pissed off on some other issue. I need to become a dependable and persistent parent all together. But I don't know how to achieve that. I have been in charge of my emotions and worries for a long time but recently, with everything happening with me and around me, I am losing my grip again. I feel on the edge more often. Small jokes and comments here and there irritate me and I feel insufficient many times a day. I feel like I am in some kind of race with life trying to get things done before I run out of time. It seems like I never have